Up until a couple weeks ago, I didn’t know heart walls existed. I’ve heard terms such as “having your guard up” or “protecting the heart” but I always thought these were used to describe feelings and actions and not something physical in matter.
It wasn’t until I stumbled upon Ed Mylett’s interview with Gabby Bernstein on The Ed Mylett Show podcast, where I started to pay attention to what my heart was communicating. As I went into deeper meditation, I found that I had protectors that built actual physical layers around my heart and were guarding it with all their might.
The first layer was easier to peel away. It took about 30 minutes once I recognized it. I thanked him for his protection through the years and told him it was safe to sit on the side and relax now. He’s now sitting in the distance, drinking coconuts and enjoying life. I thought I was cleared.
Little did I know, the following weekend as I went into meditation again- I realized there were more layers and trauma that was still stored in my body. Things from childhood, and through high school I thought I had already moved on from came to the surface. Apparently it was forgotten in my mind, but never released physically. As I put my attention to those areas of the body, I broke down in tears. ALL the suppressed emotions came out. My husband rushed into the room in panic thinking someone had passed away. That was the day I learned, in order to heal, you must allow yourself to COMPLETELY feel the pain and let it pass. Do not skip this step. Let out the tears. Let out the hurt. Let out the pain. Let out the anger. Let yourself feel it all. And then, you shall truly heal. 🕊 This one, was a lot harder to break through. It took a couple hours and needed a jackhammer, and a reminder that “I rather feel love.”
Here is the podcast for anyone that is interested: